I haven't focused much on coding and I was more on theory. I was amazed by some of my co-students who were good at debugging, developing games. I am more like code up, understand and rewrite it. This was my pattern. While looking at software engineering by pressman I was a bit curious about models of software development. I combined both waterfall and agile and proposed him as a new model. The reply from Pressman was it looks similar maybe could be finetuned. I don't have an exact reply but he mentioned he goes gets a lot more similar queries on proposals for new models.
This took me to clouds oh I did something new. Then I started looking at different models and writing articles. I wrote articles like note-taking. This was during 2002. Summary of models. It was similar to the original content and wasn't novel. I was in cloud 9 until later someone told me this is nothing but a cut down version of the article. Later down the line the more I thought I will climb up to become a project manager, I actually got closer to code. I am a slow learner but I never walk back. There were many key people in my life who re-engineered me to be good in the database, performance tuning etc.
I have been more of a domain - tech specialist balancing both. The initial years If I would have continued I would have ended up becoming a copywriter :). Yes, coding need to be taken up more as experimenting with your ideas than trying out as Hello World scripts.
This is another interesting situation. I was trying hard catching up with Hindi. We had a neighbor few houses away from north. He was a sub-inspector. My mom wanted me to learn Hindi so she sent me for tuition. I took up tuition and wanted to participate in Hindi Elocution.
This was the same old story. The greedy owner and the golden egg-laying duck. This was when I was studying the 7th. I happily memorized every single word and the complete paragraphs.
I go to the competition. Like a stream of flowing water without any highs and lows, I vomit the contents. Obviously, the dumbest way to present in elocution competition.
The judging teacher I remember was a lady teacher. She knew this guy is saying without knowing the words. Then she asked me to explain it. At least I should have been smart enough to tell the story. I was just silent and blinked my eyes :).
You will know now what I would have won. Nothing :)
This was a flawed strategy but I did catch up on this to won few prizes before I went to 10th standard.
Everything is now a memory to remember a laugh a little :). Poorly executed strategies :)
I was school first in the 10th. Yea, I didn't study in a top-notch school. I studied at the Railway School. I am happy with the education and the environment. This goes to my 12th exams. I studied at Don Bosco, Tirupattur. All the toppers from every place were here. 11th / 12th I felt like I am gone. From a pond, I went to see several sharks in the ocean.
I found the differences in how to write to score, how scoring is done, how to reverse engineer. Tuition for maths, physics, and Hindi. I really don't know if all that education had helped me practically but again the only way to progress is with marks. Money needs a job, job needs education and marks.
There was this guy topper Santosh. Something he commented on me I felt bad. I was thinking in the final exam I need to score at least a mark more than you.
I was never a topper during my 11th / 12th. I was between 10-15 only. This was just a thought. Finally, when the marks came in 12th I was 2 marks more than him :)
I was happy in a way I took revenge silently for the insult :). I still hate marks to judge anyone but you get judged only based on marks, education, and salary.
Everything has made me more of a materialistic animal. To thrive you need to keep fighting it out to go up. Knowledge is an incremental investment. Your ideas never sleep even when you sleep. All these years only made me feel its better to be a good medium of education to bridge students and industry.
I hope these stories someday inspire someone to keep going with tough times. Everyone is a hero in their own life. We need to look at life with more kindness and compassion. Keep going!!!
This dates back to my 4th / 5th standard days. I was poor in Hindi. Hindi was always a tough language in my Life. In my later years, Hindi only helped to connect with potential life partners but nothing worked though.
I wasn't sure of repercussions but somehow was prepared to copy the exam. My strategy was to write it below the sandal. It used to be the rubber slippers which are very common.
I started writing content for it. I never knew I will be caught while preparation only. My sister was the invigilator who promptly alerted my mom followed by which I got good blessings.
Finally, it was a failed attempt in preparing to copy. I had to erase what I wrote even before attempting to copy.
My Story #5 - Caught while preparing to copy for Exam
My Story #6 - 2 marks more in 12th
My Story #7 - Zero Placement
My Story #8 - Software Engineering Theory Screw Up
My Story #9 - QA to Project Manager Dreams
My Story #10 - Struggling initial days
My Story #11 - 2 Sovereigns gold salary
My Story #12 - Be Careful of Child abuse
My Story #13 - Zero-Knowledge - Mentor Days
My Story #14 - Coming up With Initiative
My Story #15 - Ameerpet Days
My Story #18 - My College Crush
My Story #19 - Over Enthusiasm Days to Burndown
My Story #20 - 24hour Microsoft Deployment Day
My Story #21 - Failed Startup Dreams
This dates back to my 5th standard. I always used to be 4th Rank in the class, There were three toppers.
1. Kavitha
2. Grace
3. Deepa
4. Siva
I was never able to get over them all through my 5th standard. Our Teacher's name is Hosana I believe. Subject I think it is English II, I don't remember exactly.
I got the answer sheets, I got around 73 / 100 I believe. I saw my answer sheet, I also saw Deepa's Answer sheet. For the same answers, I got 2 marks and she got 4 marks.
I went to the teacher and asked her the answers look the same, Why did you give me 2 marks instead of 4. I had a psychological expectation I will get two more. The twist was teacher gave zero marks and my score came down to 71. I was crying profusely and angry with the teacher.
It was a Saturday afternoon. It was only half-day working on Saturday. I came home. My dad was making chappati. My mom was giving chutney and my younger sister was having it.
I was narrating the whole incident. My younger sister was studying third standard at that time. After listening she said. The pass mark is 35, You got 71. This is two-pass mark, Why would you need to cry.
Even today she is of a different mindset and you know me now, always thinking/working for what next. I have been always preparing myself for the next version in life without weighing my personal life.
But then Life is for all kinds of people. People who want to achieve, people who want to help, people who want to travel and people who want to live in comfort.
The 2 mark story shows different perspectives of myself and my younger sister.
I had a craze for the bus all throughout my childhood. Even today I have the same craze for cars. I used to collect all the car pics from papers and stick them in the door. During 90's I remember pasting Peugeot, Opel, Daewoo, Esteem and Sumo at that time. I also kept looking in Hindu Ads for second-hand cars for 50K/60K. I was close to 35 when I got my SUV. That is another long story how I got :)
This is when we went for buying groceries. My dad used to work in Railways. We used to go once every month as a family to buy groceries. After the shopping was done. We were waiting to board the bus. As usual, I got myself lost looking at buses.
We were 5 of us. All my siblings and parents went and boarded. My elder sister figured out I am missing. This would have been a few minutes. I recognized I am alone and started crying. There were few elder people who consoled me and I was crying hopelessly.
Then my dad came back and took me. In that moment of anger, I asked him in Tamil (Ne yellam oru appava, Means Are you a good father if you leave me alone). When my mom told me during my early ages I remembered partially its only my mistake to get lost in my own world.
It would be more than 30 years now, looking back that moment is something I recollected how a 2-year son went missing and scolded his father after they connected back.
This is also during the third standard I believe. This incident is a life-changing moment. I was a careless guy during my initial years.
It was a science exam I believe. We used to carry the brown cardboard for exams. I don't remember writing anything for the exam :). I came back home at 3.30PM. I hardly knew the actual exam will start at 3.30PM.
My mom was tired after the day's work. I had two more siblings. They were also having exams during that time. Question papers will be provided at that time. We will have a copy of the same.
I don't remember writing anything credible except selecting random answers from multiple-choice questions. I never remembered anything which I didn't believe or understand the way it works.
I got a good chemistry teacher 10th Suryanayana sir because of him I remember atoms, molecules, electrovalent, covalent bonds. Education was a mere belief in remembering and rewriting facts. That's what was taught as education.
Coming back to this incident, Yea, My mom gave me a piece of white paper and asked me to write answers, I had no idea what I wrote in the exam. Definitely, you cannot expect me to write anything then :). After glancing through it for some time I gave my mom a blank white paper.
There is a catch, My mom doesn't know English. If I had to do it now, I would write something to fill up the pages :).
This moment was the turning point of my life where my mom accessed I know nothing. After this, I had an amazing tuition teacher who forever changed my life to become a good student.
This I remember the incidents that my mom beat me up. There is a plant that would attract snakes. This plant I don't remember the exact name. My mom doesn't believe in those beliefs.
The plant used to blossom white flowers. I was scared of the snake. I had an evil idea to kill the plant. Killing the plant is not a bad idea compared to the way I killed the plant. I poured hot water on the plant to kill the plant. I feel shameful for this act. I was scared of the snake so I poured hot water. My mom felt really angry about this incident. She beat me for the way / my thinking how could someone think this crooked.
I feel sorry even today for the endless fights with my mom. She did her level best but I guess I was inherently experimenting, trying my own beliefs.
That act/thinking is something evil that I could have avoided.
This I remember vaguely when I was in the third standard. My teacher's name is Hosana / Vasanti, I don't remember. This happened in my third standard. It would be 1989 - 1990 year. 10 paisa was missing from a student.
He informed the teacher. This happened in Railway School, Jolarpet. My Dad worked in Railways. My dad, I have always seen him in white and white. Well dressed, groomed. The teacher asked everyone to check their bags and inform them if there is some money kept. Everyone checked in their school bags. I too had a school bag, the usual rectangular box and old-style 90's bag made of cloth material.
I checked it and found the 10 paise in my bag. After the search, everyone said what's in their bag. I showed up the 10 paise. I had no idea how it came. I think maybe someone popped it in my bag. I haven't got that habit at that point in time.
The teacher then asked the question, Is this guy a regular offender. The whole class stood quiet. Then the teacher let me give the 10 paise to that guy. The story ended there. In the circumstance, I was a suspect but then since I didn't have any previous history it ended without any further update
I will keep writing all the moments I remember. I will write out the good/bad in me. In the end, I want to die with a clear conscience. I don't want to carry any burden.
Setting up QA Team, KT, Building Tools for Environment Setup
Performance Testing using Custom Tools, LoadRunner
Past 5 Years
Completing my Masters in Data Science
SQL Server Inmemory Migration Complete Analysis and Recommendation (After my recommendation this got implemented within a year :))
Retail Analytics Architecture (AWS / GCP / Azure) (After my analysis same template was there in new product architecture :). Correlation, not causation :))
Innovation participation in AI / ML in 2017/18 for Sales Analytics, Emotion Analytics
Evaluation of Consolidated Enterprise / Azure BI
Winning Affine Hackathon for Cab Forecast, Winning TRS hackathon for sweethearting
Filing 2 Patents in TRS
Teaching and Reaching out in different forums/mediums
SmartExit Implementation
1 Patent part of Masters
1.5 Million views in blogging in 10 Years
Personal Life
Lost my Dad in 2015
Couldn't settle down due to my own personal problems
Health deterioaited a bit
Almost bald :)
Ghost Driver, Personal Life is a different kind of storm. Hoping to write a book on my moments of Life that broke me and that made me
Moving on, Hoping to make this decade more of learning and teaching.
Their markets are rental cabs, food delivery, online products purchase. Their customer base is upper middle class, 20-30 Age groups, IT hubs, White-collar employees. There would be majorly employments across delivery, driving partners, delivery boys etc. Assume as of today they employ 500K (Total driver plus delivery partners). These 500K people would make an average of 30-35K per month. This is very good considering their starting salary and jobs.
What is the innovation involved here?
Does this business continue to drive growth in industrial activity?
Manufacturing etc. Its a basic supply-demand in Food Sales.
The profits and hoteliers' benefits can continue for another few years?
Can the customer afford to buy without the discounts?
What is the actual projected delivery after all the discounts are removed?
In the long term, what skills does it add to the employees? Will it improve their skills to innovate or create anything?
We need more startups that can generate skilled labor, low-cost innovation, areas of smart farming, smart irrigation, renewable energy sources like solar panels, wind panels. Startups are definitely good but again what jobs we are going to generate? How are we going to provide balanced growth of ecology, economy, employment we need to work on
Every Profession at some point in time is for Survival / Earning making income. At a later stage when you are satisfied with your essential needs you can make it a service.
In the age of profits, you can also spot people who do their jobs as service.
At some point in time, We need to think in terms of how do we return back to society. I find my place as a catalyst between education and industry. This goal propelled me to push/reach 10 Million views in terms of answers/blogs/sessions/teaching/books etc.
When everything goes fine there is no room to think beyond the comfort zone. When you are not comfortable with
Your Work
Your Vision
Your Goals
Your Life
Your Partner
Your Environment
You start searching for your environment that meets your vision, goals, and life. A day when you feel 'I can make this idea work','This idea has the potential','I can make it work'. This belief makes you keep pushing boundaries to make your ideas work.
We live only for a short time. Two things need to be accomplished. What I can contribute from my end, How I can live my life at my best, What do I leave behind. A firm commitment to education, willingness to learn till death, work as long as possible and as much as possible, Be a catalyst of technology. Bridge both education and industry.
Money is for survival, Learning is for motivation to do something big, Teaching is for the Satisfaction and inspires others to do big.
Personally, I may be flawed, I am also a human, I do have all my flaws and negativity. But I certainly hope, work to push my boundaries for learning, earning and teaching.
Job fills your pockets Learning feeds the mind Teaching feeds the soul
I know some decisions will keep haunting forever. Some decisions will keep hurting forever. I am in that situation. Sometimes I really feel exhausted meeting expectations from my mother. There is always a battle to respect the boundaries. This is the reason I always try not to focus on my personal life. Keep going, sometimes it's a decision I accept to suffer as I have done the same mistake several times.
At times, It a war in me to decide based on emotions or reality. How we agree to someone should be based on the reality of understanding ideas, principles, common goals not just based on emotions. Emotional is good but decisions based on principles, common goals will ensure a better life.
You have to have a plan of Life, to achieve certain things in life, else it's going to end up becoming mud without achieving anything in Life. The knowledge gap in the world that fuels for every other type of inequality - economic, innovation, medicine everything on the other side of knowledge.
Handling different issues in personal and professional life
It's difficult to stay consistent and trying to please everyone around us. But at the same time, we need not block anyone to continue their journey. When you cannot travel further let them proceed further and move ahead in their life.
When you cannot take decisions, you are not supposed to block others moving further. At last I am back to the same state in my life. Personal life is always deadlock. Anyways, move on with other things in life. Keep Going!!!
I do have an account in quora, I offer my perspectives and opinions. Some things I do not do are
Sharing Selfies
Sharing pictures of things you own
Self-promotion
Some of the answers I observed in 'What have you achieved in this decade'
I observe
Professional growth
Education and achievements
Growth and achievement of Kids
But I do not observe
Any Social Activity
Anything about Teaching
Rational thoughts / Involvement in Society as a whole
Indeed everyone who is born has to leave this place one day. We have to live more than we live for ourselves and the people around us. A deep sense of teaching, making things better, have some goals to leave a rational thought often keeps hitting my head hard.
We chose to leave people who are not aligned with our vision. Life is not just about marriage, career, money. Beyond all those, What I have contributed beyond that matters. I hope to teach upto 10 Million people by sharing tech articles / short youtube learning videos / mentoring/blogging etc. A bigger goal but yes this is the way how I feel I can best contribute.
About me - Emprical Learner, Ghost Rider, Building the best deep network for a kinder, better self!!!
Take Chances, Be Bold, Take Risks, Be Yourself, Stay Motivated and Keep Rocking!!!
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"The person that you will spend most time with in your life is yourself, so better try to make yourself as interesting as possible...."
Like a drunkard, this blog is my late-night diary and serves as my graveyard shift memories. When I am not there in this world you will know what was running in my mind. Win or Lose keep the journey interesting!!!
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"Always be a part of solution not part of problem"
"Yet, Taught by time, my heart has learned to glow for other's good, and melt at other's woe" - Homer
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