My Story #2 - The Evil in Me

This I remember the incidents that my mom beat me up. There is a plant that would attract snakes. This plant I don't remember the exact name. My mom doesn't believe in those beliefs.

The plant used to blossom white flowers. I was scared of the snake. I had an evil idea to kill the plant. Killing the plant is not a bad idea compared to the way I killed the plant. I poured hot water on the plant to kill the plant. I feel shameful for this act. I was scared of the snake so I poured hot water. My mom felt really angry about this incident. She beat me for the way / my thinking how could someone think this crooked.

I feel sorry even today for the endless fights with my mom. She did her level best but I guess I was inherently experimenting, trying my own beliefs.

That act/thinking is something evil that I could have avoided.

Happy Reading!!!

My Story #1 - The suspect

This I remember vaguely when I was in the third standard. My teacher's name is Hosana / Vasanti, I don't remember. This happened in my third standard. It would be 1989 - 1990 year. 10 paisa was missing from a student.

He informed the teacher. This happened in Railway School, Jolarpet. My Dad worked in Railways. My dad, I have always seen him in white and white. Well dressed, groomed. The teacher asked everyone to check their bags and inform them if there is some money kept. Everyone checked in their school bags. I too had a school bag, the usual rectangular box and old-style 90's bag made of cloth material.

I checked it and found the 10 paise in my bag. After the search, everyone said what's in their bag. I showed up the 10 paise. I had no idea how it came. I think maybe someone popped it in my bag. I haven't got that habit at that point in time.

The teacher then asked the question, Is this guy a regular offender. The whole class stood quiet. Then the teacher let me give the 10 paise to that guy. The story ended there. In the circumstance, I was a suspect but then since I didn't have any previous history it ended without any further update

I will keep writing all the moments I remember. I will write out the good/bad in me. In the end, I want to die with a clear conscience. I don't want to carry any burden.

Happy Reading!!!

Ten Year Journey (2011-2020)

Some of the key achievements in the past 10 years

Professional Life
Initial Years

• Setting up QA Team, KT, Building Tools for Environment Setup
• Performance Testing using Custom Tools, LoadRunner

Past 5 Years

• Completing my Masters in Data Science
• SQL Server Inmemory Migration Complete Analysis and Recommendation (After my recommendation this got implemented within a year :)) 
• Retail Analytics Architecture (AWS / GCP / Azure) (After my analysis same template was there in new product architecture :). Correlation, not causation :))
• Innovation participation in AI / ML in 2017/18 for Sales Analytics, Emotion Analytics
• Evaluation of Consolidated Enterprise / Azure BI
• Winning Affine Hackathon for Cab Forecast, Winning TRS hackathon for sweethearting
• Filing 2 Patents in TRS
• Teaching and Reaching out in different forums/mediums
• SmartExit Implementation
• 1 Patent part of Masters
• 1.5 Million views in blogging in 10 Years

Personal Life

• Lost my Dad in 2015
• Couldn't settle down due to my own personal problems
• Health deterioaited a bit
• Almost bald :)
• Ghost Driver, Personal Life is a different kind of storm. Hoping to write a book on my moments of Life that broke me and that made me

Moving on, Hoping to make this decade more of learning and teaching.

Startups vs Markets vs Economic Prospects

Let's consider the startups

• OLA
• Uber
• Swiggy
• Zomato

Their markets are rental cabs, food delivery, online products purchase. Their customer base is upper middle class, 20-30 Age groups, IT hubs, White-collar employees. There would be majorly employments across delivery, driving partners, delivery boys etc. Assume as of today they employ 500K (Total driver plus delivery partners). These 500K people would make an average of 30-35K per month. This is very good considering their starting salary and jobs.

What is the innovation involved here?
Does this business continue to drive growth in industrial activity?
Manufacturing etc. Its a basic supply-demand in Food Sales.
The profits and hoteliers' benefits can continue for another few years?
Can the customer afford to buy without the discounts?
What is the actual projected delivery after all the discounts are removed?

In the long term, what skills does it add to the employees? Will it improve their skills to innovate or create anything?

We need more startups that can generate skilled labor, low-cost innovation, areas of smart farming, smart irrigation, renewable energy sources like solar panels, wind panels. Startups are definitely good but again what jobs we are going to generate? How are we going to provide balanced growth of ecology, economy, employment we need to work on

Keep Thinking!!!

Developing Intelligent / Rational Thinking

There are different kinds of inequality that exist in society

• (Rational) Knowledge / Inequality - Without knowing about things we will remain ignorant
• Financial Inequality - Without knowing how to earn well, save well, we may not live a productive life 
• (Equality) Social / Inequality - Man-made barriers of classifying and stacking up people
• (Accessible) Healthcare / Inequality - Access to quality and affordable health care for all
• (Sustainable) Economy / Inequality - Sustainable income, innovative and ecologically sustainable income
• (Affordable) Educational / Inequality - Access to quality and affordable education

Keep Thinking!!!

Service vs Profit

Every Profession at some point in time is for Survival / Earning making income. At a later stage when you are satisfied with your essential needs you can make it a service.

In the age of profits, you can also spot people who do their jobs as service.



At some point in time, We need to think in terms of how do we return back to society. I find my place as a catalyst between education and industry. This goal propelled me to push/reach 10 Million views in terms of answers/blogs/sessions/teaching/books etc.

Keep Thinking!!!

Chaos and Creativity

When everything goes fine there is no room to think beyond the comfort zone. When you are not comfortable with

• Your Work
• Your Vision
• Your Goals
• Your Life
• Your Partner
• Your Environment

You start searching for your environment that meets your vision, goals, and life. A day when you feel 'I can make this idea work','This idea has the potential','I can make it work'. This belief makes you keep pushing boundaries to make your ideas work.

We live only for a short time. Two things need to be accomplished. What I can contribute from my end, How I can live my life at my best, What do I leave behind. A firm commitment to education, willingness to learn till death, work as long as possible and as much as possible, Be a catalyst of technology. Bridge both education and industry.

Money is for survival, Learning is for motivation to do something big, Teaching is for the Satisfaction and inspires others to do big.

Personally, I may be flawed, I am also a human, I do have all my flaws and negativity. But I certainly hope, work to push my boundaries for learning, earning and teaching.

Job fills your pockets
Learning feeds the mind
Teaching feeds the soul

Keep Going!!!!!

KGF - Classy Movie

Today I got to watch KGF Movie. Some of the distinct portrayal of the Rocky Role

• Rags to Riches
• Ambitious
• Boldness and Confidence
• Calculative and Empathetic
• Fearlessness
• Managing Power Play among multiple Villans

It does provide a sense of belief and trust for the role. In a way, they also reflect the fears, beliefs, faith that runs our inner thoughts.

Positively take it as a motivation.

Keep Going!!!

Lessons for 2020

• Goal-Oriented Milestones every month to reach teaching milestones
• More End to End Projects
• AWS Expertise and End to End Demo projects
• Milestone in personal life with a like midned person
• Better healthy lifestyle

Keep Going!!!

Cycle of pain

I know some decisions will keep haunting forever. Some decisions will keep hurting forever. I am in that situation. Sometimes I really feel exhausted meeting expectations from my mother. There is always a battle to respect the boundaries. This is the reason I always try not to focus on my personal life. Keep going, sometimes it's a decision I accept to suffer as I have done the same mistake several times.

Keep Going, Focus on professional Life.

Data Driven Decisions for Emotions

At times, It a war in me to decide based on emotions or reality. How we agree to someone should be based on the reality of understanding ideas, principles, common goals not just based on emotions. Emotional is good but decisions based on principles, common goals will ensure a better life.

You have to have a plan of Life, to achieve certain things in life, else it's going to end up becoming mud without achieving anything in Life. The knowledge gap in the world that fuels for every other type of inequality - economic, innovation, medicine everything on the other side of knowledge.

Emotional Decisions!!!

Emotional Pain

Sometimes we give up things because

• We know things are different in reality
• We know what is best for the other person
• We are not able to handle things 
• Handling different issues in personal and professional life

It's difficult to stay consistent and trying to please everyone around us. But at the same time, we need not block anyone to continue their journey. When you cannot travel further let them proceed further and move ahead in their life.

When you cannot take decisions, you are not supposed to block others moving further. At last I am back to the same state in my life. Personal life is always deadlock. Anyways, move on with other things in life. Keep Going!!!

Self Promotion on Quora

I do have an account in quora, I offer my perspectives and opinions. Some things I do not do are

• Sharing Selfies
• Sharing pictures of things you own
• Self-promotion

Some of the answers I observed in 'What have you achieved in this decade'
I observe

• Professional growth
• Education and achievements
• Growth and achievement of Kids 

But I do not observe

• Any Social Activity
• Anything about Teaching
• Rational thoughts / Involvement in Society as a whole

Indeed everyone who is born has to leave this place one day. We have to live more than we live for ourselves and the people around us. A deep sense of teaching, making things better, have some goals to leave a rational thought often keeps hitting my head hard.

We chose to leave people who are not aligned with our vision. Life is not just about marriage, career, money. Beyond all those, What I have contributed beyond that matters. I hope to teach upto 10 Million people by sharing tech articles / short youtube learning videos / mentoring/blogging etc. A bigger goal but yes this is the way how I feel I can best contribute.

Keep Going!!!

Life

My perspective of Life

Astrology - No star can make your life shife unless you make an effort to make your life meaningful

Breakup - Maturity means your memories don't stop you going forward as you accept past as a blessing, kindness, and lesson

Hope - I know I’m not perfect but that does not stop me correcting myself to be the best version of myself

Coding - Coding every day makes you a better programmer

Purpose - Get Back to the best version of self-aware self

Creativity - Constant thinking to find small improvements

Career - Don’t believe a career is based on what you do currently. Always be agile and willing to learn new things in your field of interest

Education - Keep education always a priority. Have the habit of learning, experimenting always

Purpose - "When its time to die there is a pleasure when you have utilized your life, learned as much as possible, enjoy this one lifetime" - Isaac Asimov

Keep Going!!!

The Emotional Life - Keep Learning

When it's difficult to meet the expectations of your closed ones, understand the reality aspects of people you trust. It's often frustrating that both practical and emotional aspects need a balance. Never make any decisions without considering the practical aspects of Life. It's better to think and take decisions than hurrying. Maintaining and staying in limits so that we don't cross boundaries.

Maintaining a fine line between personal and professional things at work is also important. Often when you are emotionally disturbed it affects your professional life as well. In this life, we need a different level of understanding to be true to our beliefs, expectations.

Life is not as easy as it looks. Growth in career, personal life requires a lot of consistent focus and perseverance. Money is not a measure of happiness. Beyond money, the awareness, familiarity, knowledge, and kindness are the key things to look up to retrospect life.

Keep Going!!!

2019 Retrospection

• Professionally - It was good learning exploring Pi, OpenVino, and learning building a few key projects. Year where my ideas went to the next level to NRF
• Personally - I screwed up my life yet again. Never I am able to bring consensus with my closed ones. I did actually hurt a lot of people in this process. Emotionally this year is also a bomber. No more marriage plans. 
• Teaching / Blogging - These two aspects are the best part of this year. I was able to teach more / explore, My answer stats across different channels is up to 1.5 million-plus
• Patents - After a long fight this year gave a good push for patents, Also, improved my data science blog rating to 54, the best as of now
• Driving - Another milestone 35K almost. Driving / Learning/ Coding / Blogging are the key things that kept me alive this year.

Looking forward to more Driving / Learning/ Coding / Blogging.

Expectations vs Reality

Often it's easy to talk, hard to follow. Many times in conversations when everything looks fine but in reality, you find a lot of difference in the perspective to get things going. Life is not just working with like-minded people but how much we can accommodate the limits of accepting/adjusting for a common goal.
Sometimes it's better to stop the journey when we spot the differences are huge. The more difficult people we meet the tougher it becomes to spot the right people. Always draw a line to ensure everything happens within the limits. Even when we part ways, part with mutual respect. Of course, We are not taught to handle Emotional Failures in Life.

Keep Going!!!

Life

The beauty of Life is finding the insights of science, educating for empowerment, understanding kindness and make the world a better place. This decade 2010-2020 has made me

• Question and Understand than being judgemental
• Be Empathetic
• Share what you Learn, Teach
• Practice Compassion
• Focus on becoming a better version of self

To Summarize, To make the self better we need to be

• Anti-War
• Pro-Education
• Religion - Compassion and Kindness
• Promote Sustainable and Renewable Energy
• Social AI
• Affordable Medication
• Innovate

Keep Going!!!

Data Driven Decisions

For everything, we need to be data-driven, to decide on the performance of governments, policies etc. Every policy should have a goal, methodology, and measure over a period of time. Even the Governments need to be measured by performance, not on promises.

• Education - policy - What it takes to make it employable - measure 
• Innovation - policy - What it takes to promote innovation - measure 
• Industries policy - Sustainable and Renewable energy-based  
• Methods to prevent corruption - Digital Transactions at every level - Multi-party execution - Promote Morality and Empathy

Happy Learning!!!

Next Decade Goals (2020 - 2030)

• Youtube Series on 3-minute podcast on Machine Learning, NOSQL, Databases
• Teach / Reach for free for up-to 10 Million People
• Promote Innovative ways to Learn
• Do more of DIY projects
• Promote Self Education, Independent thinking, Empathy, and Kindness

Happy Learning!!!