#Wish a AI Startup

I have been breaking my head for multiple goals - Phd / Reading Research Papers / Experimenting code. I tried experimenting few startup ideas but couldn't get it going. Three things are a priority going forward

  • Research papers, Experimenting and Focus on Latest Tools in AI / ML / Deep Learning Space
  • Clear Gate and Phd (A wish Hope I make serious efforts)
  • More rigorous coding / Experimenting with Ideas

Atleast by the next two years, I wish I create MVP products with a focus on what market needs for better tomorrow

#Wishastartup
#KeepLearning
#StayFocused

Emotional Manipulations

You cannot always take decisions that makes everyone happy. There is always an element of selfishness, expectation hidden in every relationship (Parents / Siblings / Partners). Its neither good / nor bad. It needs a certain amount of maturity to develop intuition of this can be sorted out after a certain time.

I have lost many relationships trying to meet the expectations. Education / Career Success has a lot to do with Self. Success in Relationship seems harder than ever with a lot of expectations and uncertainty to take it forward.

I think Life is better and less complicated without relationships. The one who stays after all battles will stay forever. The one who is going to go will go no matter what happens.

Its a long journey but there are a lot of temporary people in Life. Stay Calm, Keep Going.

Trust More, Live Well....

#FindingMeaning


Multi-Dimensional Life vs Multi Dimensional Skills

From being learning one thing a day, Learning has become a milestone of projects
From being taught to write a piece of module vs Do something logical and complete
We Celebrate success, Success feeds our ego, pride, beliefs
Failure bombs our attitude, skills and expectations
Failures set us to restructure, re-skill, pick up and tie the broken pieces
Failure is more valuable as it last longer until you fix the cracks
Visibly I can feel the impact of failures in career / relationships / startup ideas

Education Success = Good Learning + Hard work + Solving problems
Career Success = Communication + Skill + Attitude + Continuous Learning
Relationship Success = Empathy + Patience + Communication + Trust + Emotional Support
Life Success = Education Success + Career Success + Relationship Success

Can we be successful in all three Career, Education, Relationship ? Some of it depends on us, Some of it depends on our partners ?

We are taught on some aspects but we are not connected on all areas to be successful.

Hope we look life in a multi-dimensional way than just looking at one aspect of it.

#Lifetoberelooked

Missing Dots in Life

Behind every success, there are tears/ failures/sacrifices/betrayal
Some lessons in life come with manageable pain
Some lessons in life give us new heights of emotional and mental stress
Education has become more to do with pick / chose/fill the right answer than experiment and learning things over time
We can create painters but never a Leonardo Da Vinci. Craftsmanship is not taught but only skill is taught 
Values are taught in prayers and not followed in reality, There are a lot of missing dots for values/ beliefs/morality

#timetothink


Connecting People Vs Managing Expectations

I often get frustrated dealing with people close to us but not able to find a solution that works for both. Be it with parents / siblings / friends. There is always a line of difference but again the level of conversation and finding a trade-off balance never works out.

Every relationship involves a certain amount of expectation/ control/emotion involved. In other words, this is also manipulation in terms of parents expectation from children, relationship expectation from partners, Sibling level agreements/differences.

On top of it challenges in life as we grow old. Being single seems far better option than the complex web of relationship

#timewillanswer

Only time will answer If this life for me is meant to be a solo journey!!!

#KeepWalking

Oh Life, Lets Keep Going

If you have loved me you would not have left me
If you have left me you haven't loved me as much as I loved you
Some days I fought to remember your memories
Some days I fought to forget your memories
What did you gain by leaving people who loved you
Some nights were full of scars of stars
Some nights were dark with loneliness and pain
I was reborn in those dark days
I traveled to find the light of peace
I focused on my learning to cure the pain
I understood I have learned from the pain
My learning and kindness will take me far away to the new horizon
I see the new life of hope and peace
I look forward to make it a meaningful journey
Intelligence is both emotional, practical and meaningful decisions
Learning is for life, job, health and growth oriented mindset
I wish I learned all of this early in my life
Your failures define your limits, your success defines your strength
Keep running, when you are tired keep walking
Learned to rest and not to quit
Life let's make it more meaningful and practical
Thank you life.....

Keep Going!!!!

2018 Milestones

Professionally
  • Daily Data Science now its 140+, Covered Text, Video and Research papers
  • Many pet projects Chatbots, Mini-Alexa, Real time processing using Yolo, Object Detection / Classification, OCR
  • Number of personal articles too were more than technical articles
  • Keras, Python, R, SSIS, PowerBI, Tensorflow learning continues...
  • Continue to keep learning focus on research / phd
  • Mentor / Get into training mode
  • Learn more Do it Yourself projects
Personally
  • Lowest point of breakup and bounced back
  • Experimented Startup Ideas but failed
  • Lessons Plus Blessings

Keep Walking!!!

Gratitude for Life

A few great days, Few Okay days, Few Happy days and again few challenging days.

  • Learned from my past
  • Prioritized my goals
  • Accepted my failures
  • Understood my values/principles and how I got through the moments of pain/regret
  • Focused on my goals / getting better at certain skills
  • Back to the growth-oriented mindset
  • Bounced back from worst situations
  • Balancing Relationships / Career Goals / Personal aspirations / Health / Managing the knowledge ladder




"The Sun is Shining and So are You"

Happy Dancing!!!

A Brilliant Movie - pariyerum perumal

Usually, I keep limiting my thoughts around myself. A brilliant movie I watched evening.

There are some key things movie conveyed

  • Educational / Skill Imbalance in students coming from Rural / marginalized sections
  • Inability to cope up with English / required skills
  • Economic / Caste / Color differences and there their implications

Poignant Reality depicted in a realistic way!!!

#Timetothink

Beautiful Lines - Gladiator Motivational Speech

This below speech is been there in my heart and soul more than a decade, Today I hit upon those exact lines. The video and my favorite lines from the speech

Success, acknowledgement, fame, glory.
Many of us fight for reasons like that,
but they don't build a good name from one day to the next.
It is necessary to work hard even if there are stumbles and falls.
It is necessary to overcome obstacles.
It is necessary to have motivation, to persevere and insist.
Life is a succession of battles.
Job, family, friends:  All of us have a current status, and most, expectations for the future.
However the twists and turns of fate take us by surprise.
One can not always do only what one likes,but to those that like what they do and are proud of always doing better,make more progress day by day.

At our moments of quiet, and hectic decisive moments when mere good intentions are not enough,
that's when life demands of us, courage, boldness, creativity and an unquenchable fighting spirit.
The truth is that problems and setbacks happen more frequently than we would like.
Times change, new challenges arise, and new objectives.
The warriors look into the eyes of the future without fear or arrogance but with the confidence of those who are ready for battle.

Living is also being prepared for difficult situations.
How we approach the difficulties is was makes the difference.
Sometimes we ask, How can we cope with the radical changes that we are faced with?
It's like acting a new scenario where things we used to do so well, now need to be relearned.
And how can we fight without letting go of fundamental values?
And more, how do we know exactly what needs to be done at the right time?
The amazing thing is that it is precisely upon facing adverse situations that many rediscover the best in themselves.
Ethics, friendship, the capability to create new strategies based on experience.
The talents to promote positive alliances.
The spirit of leadership.
The awareness of the strength that resides in true teamwork.
All this comes to the forum when required by circumstances when one knows there is an important ultimate goal.

Naturally it's not easy to give up habits, customs, it's not easy to adapt to new environments or employ resources we are not familiar with, but all warriors know that pessimism and uncertainty hold one back at moments like this.
Even if the threat comes from many sides, with agility strength and determination,we can achieve our goals.
A combination of energy and intelligence as well as a balance between emotion and reason are essential to success.

It is a most satisfying feeling to reach the end of a task with a feeling of duty fulfilled and receive the accolades and respect of all our colleges,the admiration of the people we love,to hear our names spoken with pride,
The pride of having seen the obstacles, the opportunity of growth,
The pride of having seen life's ups and downs and win.
The pride of being a winner who did not give up fundamental values.

Happy Living!!!

A Letter to Self

This letter is a letter to myself to understand the journey better and adjust the direction going forward.

Things you can control
Your Habits
Planning for Time
Learning Plan
Feed your thoughts with right information
Making the right connections
Eliminating unwanted connections

Things you can't control
Opinions from others
Criticism
Blame Games

Making a Difference
Being the best at what you do
Do all things with Love
Be more kind and Courageous too

Habit of Discipline
Learn to Say No
Stay Focused
Make yourself a priority

Health Focus
Balance Sleep, Walk, Learning
Have a Hygienic environment
Have a positive setup around yourself

The End Goal of All this
Be a good memory in others Life

Happy Living!!!

The Four Wheels of Life

  • Values - What you Live For, Have a clean conscience
  • Education - Growth Oriented Mindset, Keep Learning, Keep your mind open
  • Relationship - Someone who cares (Current Tyre not old punctured wheels)
  • Health - Live on your own till your last breadth, Die without any long illness
Even if One wheel fails, Replace the punctured Tyre don't flatten all the wheels

We change jobs, we move places, we shelve old clothes, old materials, we throw old food then why live in old thoughts. Do well in current job, Learn well in what you do now, Take good care of people who stay in your tough times, Reward Loyalty and Honesty, Keep Learning, Keep Growing!!!

Happy Living!!!

Marriage

By 30+++++ there is a strong inclination to decide on Marriage / Kids from age / parental pressure / setting life priorities plus psychological / physiological needs.

Most of them you meet
  • Already married, divorced looking to settle
  • Still living in the ex world
  • Big list of *astro* expectations
  • My mom list of *same language / same area / status match**
  • Difficult to understand / calibrate narcissist behavior
Tricky Situation!!!
Late in the Game!!!

Education / Competition / Reservations

Quora is a hotbed of discussion of education / reservation related discussions. Before getting into any further discussion on pros and cons. Lets discuss on the quality of education.

From metro / Tier II students
  • Heavy Competition and Parents mentoring/ coaching to crack premier schools for careers in Medical / Engineering
  • Test driven assessments
  • Practice based learning is absent
From Tier III / Government Schools Students
  • Large skill gap to attend Nation Level Exams
  • Differences in Syllabus
  • Pass criteria is meager for National Level Exams
Education how it should be ?
  • Educate your mind with Values
  • Educate yourself with Skills
  • Educate yourself to connect the dots / solving problems
  • Inculcate your intuition to pick, chose and learn area of interest
  • Marks / Phd / Education / Salary does not really reflect education
  • Education is endless and it never ends anytime
  • You learn by educating yourself and others
Before discussing on Education / reservation / we first need to step back and understand the fundamental flaws in education system. With so much open source mediums we have no restriction of quality learning content in Web. Hope we find new leaders / new innovators in this decade



Keep Learning!!!

Late Night Retrospection

After some mad days/ bad days/ health issues now kind of trying to get back to my original form. Learning is endless. Career growth is a different aspect compared to doing things we really wish to do. Smart work or Hard work what matters most.

Do we grow from our skills or by influence? How does an ideal career look like? In the days of repetitive and monotonous tasks are we really doing things we love to do?

Outside of these things look into the personal aspect of life with people close to us far from our perspectives.

Never mind health-focused / constant learning pursue meaningful goals is the only way to move forward

'Miles to go before I sleep, Miles to go before I sleep'

Gn

Thank you Life

To take a moment and look back and feel happy for lesson / blessing / happy memories life has given till date. Life never stops teaching you values of perseverance / resilience / trust and honesty. From humble beginning to a daily learning cycle that nurtures your heart, feeds your soul.

Some long days at work, Sleepless nights for exams, Deploying code in production, Coding for prototypes. As I aged I struggled to remain focused. This habit I continuously followed because very late in life I recognized connect all the dots to make learning more effective and meaningful.

I am thankful for the learning
I am happy for the lessons life gave me
Big thank you for people who trusted me
Big thank you for people who left me
The person who will be with you forever is only YOU
YOU are special to Yourself before you make anyone special in your Life

After every chapter a lesson is learnt. After every year there are a few accomplishments / regrets / learning. The journey continues and the learning continues.

Happy Learning and Living!!!

Keep going

Sometimes being deaf is good, we will not be tempted to raise our opinions
Sometimes being quiet is better than shouting at people
The people you love will be the ones who hurt you most
The people you love will be the ones who control you most
Its easy to say live without expectations but nothing in the world comes without expectations
The mirage of happiness and a contended life that keeps us unhappy with mismatched results and expectations
Life is a ongoing journey of mixed experiences of happiness / sadness / joy / pain / regret
Wish some people we would have never met in life
Wish some situations never happened in life
A balance of emotions, balancing regrets, finding happiness, Living peacefully everything is an ongoing exercise

Keep going!!!


Decisions for Life

The toughest point in life is taking a decision that does not hurt the ones who are close to us. We cannot take decision that works for everyone, Some decisions may hurt lifetime relationships, Some may heal, some may never heal. The understanding, acceptance, empathy does not work when it comes to certain hard stands with respect to opinions / perceptions / judgement.

We all have limited perceptions / understanding of extreme situations in life. It reminds me of different seasons of life. Sometimes people leave us with memories / regrets / happiness / sadness. Its a limited time we live in this world. Building a discipline that helps us to stay focused and motivated is important.

I have to step back and start re-building some of the pillars for a better decisive future. Balancing personal / professional / aging everything is time boxed. 

Staying motivated and accommodating loved ones who don't understand us is the hardest part of life. 

Live Well!!

Life

In the eyes of nature, we are all the same
In the eyes of the opportunity, it is 10X population fighting for the 1X opportunity
We all run towards money, jobs, education hoping it would give peace
We listen to luxurious spiritual leaders who don't face common man problems 
We are digitally connected but remain intellectual illiterates with distorted facts
We have hundreds of connections but no one understands us
Everything looks viable until you earn money but you will be empty in your inner self
What a world where you witness both poverty and luxury at the same time
Be blind for your survival or Stay deaf as long as it does not impact you
Do we need to celebrate this world where poverty and war kills some and weapons trade keeps growing
Love humanity, Live for Kindness, Let humanity prosper
Education should teach kindness and compassion
                                                         - Siva

Keep Thinking!!!
Happy Living!!!

Breakup Poem

Feelings of Finding Someone Special
A beautiful life that gives me haunting memories of your smiles
I wanted to say hello, but I was ignored with a new guy
If love was so easy to be replaced, God give me the power to replace my pain with pleasure
I died once when she left, I died every day to feel this is the pain of true love
Oh Love, Teach me, Help me, Get me to the shores
My heart is sinking in the misery and pain
I long for the lost love as I see her in my smiles and cries
Give me the power to forgive, Give me the kindness to survive
Let there be the love that succeeds all the challenges
May you find your true love
May destiny give me a new horizon
May destiny give me a new leap of faith
May destiny give me an angel who will change my cries to smiles

Update - December 30th - 
Life is good when you find yourself after you lose things in life
Kindness, Empathy makes life more meaningful
We never lose anything in life, We find our-self on every occasion when we are broken

Feelings of Self-Love
The most beautiful feeling is you are loved so much
The most hurtful feeling is you are no more loved
The most enlightening moment is the love for the self
I am proud of the way I cared for you
I am proud of the way I fought for my love
I am proud of the way I cared for your safety
I am proud of the way I carried the scars
Life is kindness from wounds
Life is gratitude from the small deeds
Move on, there is a beautiful life in every small act of kindness.
Life is beyond the walls we build with hate and anger. 
Have beautiful memories in life. Enjoy this life. Keep rocking!!!

Keep going!!!

In the middle of nowhere

Learning plus career growth both need to happen simultaneously. When there is learning without growth it does limit our interests to experiment things. It has been a constant battle to keep learning and updated with areas of interests.

A constant battle managing personal life vs professional interests vs aging. Still I feel there is a lot of learn / experiment and make something meaningful out of career.

I intend to purse my Phd, I have to keep continuing my learning and stay focused to take things forward. Life has both lows and highs. Need to stay focused and sustain the momentum.

Happy Learning!!!

"Coding everyday makes you a better programmer
Being kind makes you a better person
Forgiving others makes you a mature person
Learn, Live, Stay Focused, Keep Walking"

Happy Learning!!!


"Fight for you. Believe in you. Bleed. Cry. Conquer - Dan Waldschmidt"